last night was thrilling. not just the sleep deprivation part either. sometimes things just feel like they click. these are the kind of moments i'm bound to remember for the rest of my restless life. last night was one of those moments. a night of epiphanies if you will.
there is a brother of two of my dance friends name patrick who I always tease and call hot stuff and whatnot. last night after dance I was walking out and he had an adorable little friend with him. the kid whistled at me. i looked back and kept walking. i mean come on he's like ten.
well anyway, at relay Patrick and his friend stopped by for a little while. along with Patrick's mom, sisters, naomi and the reece girls. all the little ones were so excited to see me and it felt great. i walked around the track with my arms around patrick and his friend. patrick didn't want to go home. i love kids. they always brighten my day.
bella was there the whole night. she ended up falling asleep about midnight, but it was fun because she is so darn sweet and i adore her.
i really felt like chrissy and i bonded a good amount last night. i think we kind of needed that. i love her to death and it's cool to have her back as my bff. me and jordy were good last night also. i love when that happens.
and there's this guy i kind of like now. i've been slightly crushing on him for a while, but last night just magnified it all. it's stupid, i know. he graduates in three weeks. and i've never felt i had a chance with him anyway. i hung out with him most of the night last night and kind of got to know him. the more i get to know the more i start to like him. i just wish it would have all happened sooner... he is hilarious. i think i laughed more last night than i have in weeks thanks to him. he is a sweet guy who doesn't drink or smoke or any of that crap and i really respect that. he doesn't cuss either. i was like wow. he's super sweet and attractive. i walked a few laps with him by myself and that was really cool. one time he said something about how i should hang out with him at his house tomorrow and i didn't know if he was serious or not. maybe we will get a chance to hang out sometime. anyway...then for a few hours me and him and jordy and chrissy chilled. i want a sweet, good guy like him...or him preferably. but i'm realistic. damn. i wish i didn't have to be.
i'm trying to get over a certain guy btw. i am split over whether i should or not. i don't want to, but it seems like the best thing to do. last night helped a little i do believe.
to sum it all up... i feel i learned a lot about myself last night. i feel comfortable again.
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