Every step that I lay down brings me where I'm from to lay down, lay down, to lay my crumbs.

I can't remember being this happy in ages so hell I'm going to write this down. First off I have a happy kind of dilemma- you know the kind I 'm talking about- a curse within a blessing. The Matches ( my favorite band- duh to you if you didn't know already) are touring in April very close to my home and there are two shows in particular I am dying to go to. Well Say Anything... which is a band I admire and have always wanted to see in concert are coming around like the week before. And to top it all off, I found out today that Ghostland Observatory (watch out- they're going to make it big one day) is playing a show on the Saturday before the Say Anything... concert. My parents seem to be okay with like maybe three- since I can't drive yet. But you know what, we'll worry about all that when the times come. Just damn- why do they all have to be touring at the same bloody time.
I can't wait until February 22-24 because I'm going to my first dance Convention. Super exciting. I can't wait. I can't wait. And I absolutely adore the other people going.
THE MATCHES NEWS:
1) If you didn't already know, they're new cd A Band In Hope ( sound it out if you don't understand the cleverness) comes out March 18. I'm counting the days!!!!!!!!!!
2) Since the beautiful notes first reached my deprived ears, I have been hooked on Wake The Sun that they released from their new album. My words will serve it no justice- so go check it out yourself on their myspace. It's so fucking awe-inspiring for a lack of better words. This song just wows me over and over. It reestablishes with stunning clarity why I love this band so dearly. They are unafraid to push the limits and try new things with them. It has been great to kind of grow up alongside a band you adore. There is just something about The Matches, some quality that I can't place my finger on. Maybe one day- people will look at them and realize the amazing talent- the connection. Everything that the band is and they will get their recognition. They fucking deserve it. Those beautiful boys never cease to amaze me.

I'll keep black holes painted on my eyes.

So, it is true. Our generation has lost one of its greatest stars. If you don't know already Heath Ledger was found dead earlier this evening. He's the actor who was in Brokeback Mountain, The Patriot, A Night's Tale, 10 Things I Hate About You, and so many more films. I've always thought he was a great actor with some subtle unnamed quality that ensures he will never be forgotten. I was super excited when I heard of the Bob Dylan movie coming out where different actors and actresses play certain aspects of Dylan with Heath Ledger being one of theses roles. With the movie comes out in theater, I'm sure it shall be crowded with those wishing to catch a little more of that great star. My cousin's boyfriend had a shirt over Christmas that was of Heath Ledger as the joker. Being the huge Joker fan that he is, he somehow found that shirt and I was so ready to see that movie even though I'm not big on Batman-because heck it was Heath Ledger! Let's ensure that he is never forgotten. Watch his movies and let yourself be blown away by the talent the world had lost so prematurely. R.I.P Mr. Ledger.

Mona Lisa knows she can't Rome without Caesar.

I am not only a sucka for Smucker's jam, I'm also a sucka for random encounters with nameless homosapiens much like myself. Today one of those oh so vivid arbitrary confrontations occurred and rocked me to my core. Why I place more excitement on events based around people I will never talk to again than I do on everyday events with those I adore I will never know. All I know is that I do. So me and my mom were in Kohl's looking for my grandma an outfit for her birthday. This guy walks by with his mom and I glance over and he's mega intriguing. Like punk-black jeans, a pink shirt I remember seeing in Hot Topic, black jacket, black hair, nice little tan going on, good body type, only a year or so older than moi. I was like DAMN. He looked over and I was like okay eye contact. Needless to say, it was hard to make me eyes stray from such a perfect image. (What may seem like exaggeration is seriously what was going through my head. Pathetic?) So after Kohl's we went to Barnes & Noble ( I hate that Lynchburg store now because they don't have shit.) and I went over to the music section. I had finally made the decision to give in and spend $27. fucking 95 on Slash's new autobiography and was walking away when guess who walked by. Mega intriguing guy from Kohl's. We made eye contact again and I was like damn. I wish I knew that kid. I would be all over him. lol It made me feel all good inside cause I think he was checking me out a little too. But I mean hey- how many girls you see spending $27.95 on a Slash book. I am pretty damn hard core if I may say so myself.

Thanks Cool Kids for admitting, "Gotta hold up my jeans cause they fallin' off my ass."

So sweetness occurred again today in my acro. class. (A tidbit of excess information- I finally found two things I'm damn good at in there. woo hoo for late acro. bloomer Olivia) There was this thing playing online that was a scene from center stage and the main girl dancing was so amazing. Well, little Maddie was like "WOO Olivia you look like that girl." I was like really? And she was like "Yeah you're pretty and you have that makeup like her" I was so stoked. Okay, maybe she's buttering me up, but that just made a wicked day wickeder. I don't know why today was so good, but it just was and I'm not going to argue with that for one second. On another note, Daniel kind of pissed me off today. I was looking in old yearbooks and sending pictures to Leon of himself because I just found it so amusing. Looking at those pictures made me realize how much I really miss him despite all the shit we've been through. Anyway there was a picture of him and his best friend from when they were really little and it was so fucking adorable I couldn't get over it. Well later Daniel was like why do you care? And my response was something along the lines of "Leon is like one of my best friends now, and even though he pisses me off to the breaking point at certain times, it's not like that anymore so we get along." Daniel was like that's like saying you love screaming children when they are drugged with sleeping pills. I was like what the ? And then he started butting in other people's business and I was just like STOP You're not always right! But I feel bad for him, so I can't say shit like that to him. Instead I just vent in this little blog o' mine. Sorry for the boring dialogue and use of people's actual names. I usually refrain from both, but something just struck me to change my habits for tonight. Well, as you know, I'm am not capable of writing a blog without a serious note so here goes- a quote to live by- a quote from Jimi Hendrix's If 6 Was 9: "I've got my own life to live. I'm the one that's gonna die when it's time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to."

I'm feeling overheated cause my life keeps coming, my heart's been troubled by the speed of love.

Thank goodness I'm back to lighthearted blogs. I just had an experience I feel the need to share because it put a smile on my face and gave me a slight ego-boost( like I really needed one of those ha ha). Purple haze
Background information: When I was little and Jimi Hendrix's song Purple Haze would come on the radio I would always sing along. Well I had always sung the lyrics "'Scuse me while I kiss the sky" as "'Scuse me while I kiss this guy" because that is honestly what i though he was saying. Well after a few years when I got into Hendrix's stuff I found out I had been wrong. But come on, you know how I could have made the mistake.
Fast forward to today: I was listening to disc three for the first time from my Hendrix box set i got for Christmas. Well a live version of Purple Haze comes on and I'm not paying a lot of attention, but I heard something that made me rewind back to that part to listen to it again with full concentrarion. No doubt about it. In that live version Hendrix clearly says "Acting funny and I don't know why, 'Scuse me while I kiss that guy." I was flabbergasted to say the least. I made my parents listen to it, and they agreed. So I've been right all along. SO maybe it's not in the recorded version, but it is there. Damn. The lovely Mr. Hendrix never ceases to please.

I've got my own world to live though, and I ain't gonna copy you.

Well I am so hella ecstatic to pronounce that my first post of this oh so glorious new year shall be upbeat. That's a change, now isn't it? But damn, I'm already enjoying it. So don't bring me down. Dig?
It's like I'm turning my life around. A whole new start and all that jazz. So cliche. But anyway, worked things out with my bff. Learned from my mistakes and now I believe I'm a better person/our relationship will become a stronger one. My other bff I've had all through elementary school to now- well, things are working out with her too. My best guy friend seems to be back on that "you do matter to me" binge and I've kind of missed that. So all around friendship wise, things are...how to put this... delicious in an emotion way. School is okay. Dance for me starts back tonight which is exciting. I will be hurting like holy fuck tomorrow. It was weird last week because I would just be walking and my legs would start to ache. I think it's cause was the lack of activity to the muscles or something because it's happened before like at the beginning of summer. Since the rest of my life seems to be flowing smoothly, I am devoting way more time to dance. For the plain and simple reason I can. I mean heck, big recital is less than five months away and I so want to be the embodiment of perfection. So that means diet, exercise, focus. I've got it down pat, cat. There's some yoga class starting up on Thursdays this week and I wouldn't mind going. I feel it would be beneficial to my dance and it's on one of my non-dance days. Only problem is getting there. I shall beg I suppose. Oh and I got offered a job by one of my family friends at her law firm in evenings helping out. So maybe that will work out and solve the transportation dilemma for a while. My parnets as Jordan would say, will be more likely on board if that job is involved. But anyway ramble, ramble, ramble. That's me. And I like it that way. Dig?
Oh P.S. >(these don't happen often, so you might want to pay attention) I'm infatuated with Jimi Hendrix at the moment and now more than ever I feel the need to persuade you to go check his pure perfection out. Hendrix never dissapoints. As I sit here in my Hendrix shirt given to me by that oh so darling Michael Miller I used to call my own, I can say that with the utmost honesty. I was reading the Jimi Hendrix scrapbook the other day and there was a quote where he was telling of his long-haired times in Harlem where he'd walk down the street and ladies would say things like "Oh, is that black Jesus or something?" And I thought, hell maybe they were onto something. But anyway go and ExPeRiEnCe HeNdRiX!
P.S.S. > I can't wait until January 25. Rambo baby! I'll leave you with one final comment. Let the bodies hit the floor.