in a car with a girl, promise me she's not your world 'cause andy, you're a star in nobody's eyes but mine

i have a new favorite poem. i can't put into words how much i adore this poem. i also realized it should have been written for my bff. i showed it to him and was like "who does this remind you of?" his response after reading it- you know me way too well. damn right i do.
it's raining in love:
i don't know what it is,
but i distrust myselfwhen i start to like a girl
a lot.

it makes me nervous.
i don't say the right things
or perhaps i start
to examine,
evaluate,
compute
what i am saying.

if i say, "do you thing it's going to rain?"
and she says "i don't know,"
i start thinking: does she really like me?

in other words
i get a little creepy.

a friend of mine once said,
"it's twenty times better to be friends
with someone
than it is to be in love with them."

i think he's right and besides,
it's raining somewhere, programming flowers
and keeping snails happy.
that's all taken care of.

BUT

if a girl likes me a lot
and starts getting real nervous
and suddenly begins asking me funny questions
and looks sad if i give the wrong answers
and she says things like,
"do you think it's going to rain?"
and i say, "it beats me,"
and she says, "oh,"
and looks a little sad
at the clear blue california sky,
i think: thank god, it's you, baby, this time
instead of me.
---richard brautigan